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November 16th, 2008 • Related • Filed Under

I have this thing, every now and again (it tends to happen post negative IVF) where I want to burn my blog.  In fact I feel like burning a lot of things, like for example my hair which has now banded together to begin the big exodus. Imagine that, not only am I now infertile, but I am suffering hair loss (meds side effect? stress?).  Lovely.  Another wonderful thing in my life that we all can raise a glass to.

Needless to say I’m not in the best of moods.

I am currently not suitable for consumption by the general public and the events transpiring in my life are probably more suitable for a very select audience of people that enjoy reading stories of extreme frustration, inner turmoil, existential travail and a deep agitation with certain irritating types of people. My audience is small, highly literate and probably on prozac or another similar mind altering substance.   They also generally don’t blog themselves, because their stories are too controversial or difficult to tell.

I would guess, at this hour of the morning, they are probably reading their sunday paper with a glass of wine, some probably puffing a cigarette and others craving the before mentioned but not doing it because of their anal retentive obsession with their health.

Through experience I have however learned not to burn anything when I’m in my current state of mind.  In fact I am considering acquiring a straight jacket to wear in times like these, I will write on this jacket in big black letters the words: “First do no harm”

So the blog lives to see another day.

Off to read my Sunday paper….

There Are 5 Responses So Far. »

  1. Comment by Shaz on 16 November 2008:

    Thinkng of you Super M, life post failed IVF is NEVER easy! And it doesn’t matter how many IVF’s you have, the failure of one just never gets easier to cope with.
    Just don’t do anything drastic right now, hang in there, the sun will come out again, sometimes it just take a bit longer.
    (((Hugs)))

  2. Comment by Polly on 17 November 2008:

    There are not enough things to throw … I hope you enjoyed the Sunday *morning* wine.

    Hugs,
    Polly

  3. Comment by charne on 17 November 2008:

    o M, i wish i could help… but the pain after a failed IVF is never easy…. i agree with sharon the failure of a ivf never gets any easier… in fact the more you do the more you think you have a beter chance…. i just pray and hope you feel comfort and encouragment soon.

    As for burning your blog or doing any other drastic things…. take a deep breath, wait a few weeks and then decide what to do…

    take care of yourself

  4. Comment by Dee on 17 November 2008:

    Hi there,
    You dont have to blog until you are ready to – if that time never comes then you can burn it! I LOVE your blog and your style of writing, its so witty. xxx

  5. Comment by Sam on 19 November 2008:

    I’m glad your blog lives to see another day – well cos it is a wittily written blog. It is also the cheapest form of therapy… and trust me I use the blog and a real life person right now ;)

    The pain of a failed IVF never gets easier my friend, I’m sorry you’re in this place right now…

    Love ya and sending you loads of hugs!
    xxx

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